Tec, Laimīte, tu pa priekšu....

Kad viss kļūst pa daudz, es ievelkos sevī.  Kļūstu savā būtībā klusāka, mazāka, un cenšos vienkārši tikt galā ar sevi.  Ne vienu reizi vien man ir teikts, tas atstāj tādu dzestrumu un rūgtumu virmojot ap mani.  Tas, protams, nav tas, ko es vēlos panākt, bet tādas ir ārējās sekas, kad ieeju pārāk dziļi sevī.  Vienīgi atliek lūgt kaut kam lielākam par sevi nākt talkā, ieelpot atkal siltumu manā dzīves burbulītī.....

When everything feels like it's a bit too much, I retreat into myself.  I become far more quiet and smaller in my being, in an effort to just get on with myself.  I've been told more than once that this sends out a cool and bitter energy.  That, of course, is not my intent, but those are the external consequences when I burrow too far into myself.  And then, the only way forward is to ask for help from something far greater than myself, to breathe a bit of warmth back into the bubble of my life.....

Laimīte (Goddess of fate and good fortune), you go ahead,

Sprinkle kind words,

Bring forth warm feelings,

Granting a good life.

(** Language nuance discovery of the day: I always struggle to translate 'Tec, Laimīte....' and typically settle for 'go', but tecēt is really like a very light, rhythmic running - in Latvian folk dance 'teciņu solis' is a quick and measured step, and very highly linked to lightness on your feet.  This is how I've always envisioned Laima 'going'.  But google translate gave me another option this morning, which is of course, to flow, as in water flowing.  That also is such a beautiful and more deeply nuanced image for the way Laima moves.)

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